I now hate my life.

I just got done watching a lecture by Maria Popova who is the creator and curator on Brain Pickings, which I believe is one of the best website on the internet.  If you are a creative you need to be reading her website.  No ifs, and or buts about it.  Anyways, I just got done watching this amazing lecture she gave on life and creativity and it occurred to me that I hate my life.  I am a not doing it right. I am really an unhappy person. I see that there is so much I need to cut out of it and so much to replace it with.

For one thing, I need to get out of my house and start living. I’ll talm about that more later. Another is show up and work. Stop letting bullshit and people get in my way.  I let too much and too many people distract me.  I have no structure.  I stay in my house all the time and rarely go out.  I really need to start showing up and put structure my life.  I need start investing in the friends I have and make new ones, and applying the things that my therapist has suggested.

You know my favorite quote is by the  American painter Chuck Close who said “Inspiration is for amateurs, the rest of us show up and get to work.  I have this quote on my business card, yet, I don’t do that.  For Christ  sake, I have 5 unfinished paintings one of which I got money for months ago. I have a film that has been in “Development” for over a year, and a series that needs to be researched and written.

I really can’t keep this up. It all needs to change, change now.

 

 

 

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So I am sitting here in front of you. 28 Sept 2015

So I need to start writing. Why? Because at my core I am a writer. I know I do not put any effort into it, but none the less, I am a writer. Then after that follows being a filmmaker, painter, all around artist.  I look inside mind and there are so many things to write about. That is why I have 3 blogs. So I am making the commitment to write and to write a lot, as well as read a lot. We should all be avid readers. Don’t you agree.

So what here is what is up with me. I am doing research for my film on sex trafficking and combat veteran issues.  Why so much research? Because, I want to be an expert on these subjects so that I may speak with authority.  I also want to start advocating on these 2 subjects.  I am going to be contacting Tampa Police Department to see what they are doing in regards of fighting sex trafficking in Tampa. Which by the way, is a major hub for child sex trafficking. I am just finishing up Holly Austin Smith’s book Walking Prey. I strongly recommend you read it. Especially if you deal with children.

 

And now something funny from the Boondocks.

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